Denial is a powerful thing. It can make you blind of the truth when it is staring you in the face. It is the facts you don’t want to see. You unknowingly live in a reality that you create yourself because you do not want to accept what is actually happening. It happens to us all. Sometimes we do it to help us through a hard situation and sometimes we need another truth to live with ourselves everyday. Sometimes we force ourselves to forget or we prevent ourselves from seeing the truth. But then there are the times that we need to see the truth and we just can’t. We need to break through a wall of denial in order to get on with our lives. We are living in the dark and need to be shown the light.
I had to learn about denial the hard way when I was about 19. A girl I was dating was a dirty skank and I didn’t even know it. She was my first girlfriend and she meant a lot to me at the time. It wasn’t til much later that reality hit me in the face. I had already moved to Atlanta and was back home visiting. My friends let me know that truth and it finally broke the barrier of denial. It hit me like a train. I don’t think I have ever been so angry in my whole life. But it made me think. It amazed me that I could live in such a lie for so long and be totally oblivious to what was actually happening. Something that was staring me in the face for so long. There was so many things that told me the truth that I just totally ignored because I didn’t want them to be true. It scared the shit out of me. What else am I not seeing? Could this have happened before? Can it happen again? Are there things I am not seeing right now?
The experience opened my eyes. Not only was I totally avoiding dirty tramps from that moment on, I wanted to be aware of the truth. The truth of everything. I wanted to see the facts and let them determine what I see. I wasn’t going to take pure belief rule my life. I believed this girl was a perfectly honest human being. I was wrong. Sometimes when you believe something is true, it’s not. Sometimes when you want to believe something is true so bad, there is nothing that can persuade you otherwise. You will make up false truths to back your own misguided belief. You will ignore the obvious and concentrate your own made up reality. In turn, you live a lie.
But where there is skepticism, there is also trust. Trust is equally as powerful as denial. Without trusting the person next to you you are alone, but at the same time I think that people lean on trust way too much. Actually people “trust” without seeing the facts. Sometimes trust is the only thing keeping people from embracing the truth and eliminating denial. Sometimes the “truth” is the scariest thing to face.
I feel that being skeptic of the truth will lead you to an answer that will either reiterate your own belief or completely open your eyes to something that you never would have thought of otherwise. It could potentially turn your life in new new direction and open your mind to experiences you never thought you could ever have partake in. I feel that weighing both truth and trust equally is the best way to live your life. Let your head lead you but trust your heart. Trust your Mind. Believe in yourself.
Hello Peeps,
It’s been awhile I know. I have been experimenting with new ways to show off my work, my website and myself. I hope you like the new website. It’s pretty much the direction I am going to go in for now. I am not 100% on my new logo and it will change here in the next couple of weeks. I have had a crazy couple of weeks with going out of town partys and fishing and visitors. Plus I have been busy at work and with freelance. To add to the craziness, I got a virus on my computer at work and that has put me completely out of commission all week. All in all it’s been stressfull.
I hope you like the new look. I will be adding to it slowwly over the next couple of months so keep a lookout. My download site and picture gallery site have also been under renovation. Let me know what you think and how everything works.
Dave
This restaurant was created completely by Dave Caselli and 23 Designs. The floorplane was engineered first and then with that, the 3D outlive was built. Afterwards it was was lite and rendering using Lightwave 3D.
This was a comp interface created for Nascar for a new application that will let you interact with your own experience. The user will be able to change the setting to manipulate the environment. The work was done to support a research project.
Photography of Priscilla Caselli taken by Dave Caselli.
This is a 3D rendering I did based on a floorplan provided by the client. All the furn iture and accesories were created from scratch. All the lighting and rendering was done in Lightwave 3D.
In 2008 Indigo Studios was contracted by JWT Team Detroit to complete a website for the Ford Dealerships of South Florida. Indigo was faced with a web challenge that included Video compression and integration, Flash animation and navigation, user downloads, PHP emails, and an interactive map with all the South Florida Dealerships. Working close with JWT Indigo Studios completed a truely magnificent website that was able to be tracked using integrated Google Ayanlytics. This way the clients could record all traffic to and from the site. It was also completely user friendly and easily navigated through a state of the art animated navigation system. JWT and Ford were extremely pleased with the fast turnaround and professional quality provided from Indigo throughout the workflow of the job.
The way we interact with each have changed significantly over the past ten years. The Internet has grown and spawned new ways to communicate. Social networks and Peer to Peer programs are only a couple of the new ways to keep in touch with old friends, talk to your wife, and waste time at work. But with this new wave of technology, I feel that some people forget just how they are perceived online. All the information you put on your Facebook, your Linkin, your blog, and even your American Express labels you as a person. It creates your Internet Identity.
Since the beginning for Social Networks I have tried to put my name out there and sign up for as many as possible. I have to admit I am not scared to input my address and phone number into any off the wall database to store on some server in China. I try to put my name out there as much as possible so it is easier for people to know who I am. For people to distinguish me from other Dave Caselli’s. For Search Engines to have my name out there more than any other Caselli, or any other Dave even. This is why I establish such an Identity. I want my name on the map.
So because I am so adamant about my own Internet Identity, I cant believe how other people abuse and tarnish their own identity. I am not going to name any names, but I will state this: What people see on the Internet is what they believe is true. If the majority of the photos you have of yourself are half naked pictures of yourself on the beach, people are going to ask themselves why is this person parading themselves online this way?
Also, people don’t realize that everyone “Googles” everyone. If you are trying to get a job, make sure you know what a potential employer will find when they “Google” your name. It might be time to take down the picture from that Bachelorhood party in Vegas. Things like this might not just get you in trouble from a potential employer, but also a current employer. I also have to say that if you have a ton of people from your past on Facebook, try to understand how they will perceive you. They don’t know you, but they know your Facebook.
Overall, I am most likely different than most people. I don’t care if I have “cooky” pictures of myself online. I right this blog putting my life in the public eye for anyone to read. I like to keep myself honest with the people around me so I can be honest with myself. I try not to hide from who I am. But I still will never put up those pictures I took with that donkey in Mexico.
